March is Pregnancy After Loss Awareness Month


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March is Pregnancy After Loss Awareness Month. Why March? Well, March is a time where we are starting to come out of the dark winter months. It is a time when there is hope for new life. There is the hope of a rainbow.

With 1 in 4 pregnancies ending in miscarriage and 1 in 160 pregnancies ending in stillbirth, loss unfortunately affects many of us. And a good amount of us will go on to conceive again, often within the first year following their loss.

Pregnancy after loss is a different kind of journey. Pregnancy after loss is filled with a mix of emotions. It’s complicated. It’s filled with anxiety.  And for some, it can also be filled with grief. In fact, women who become pregnant following a loss report higher symptoms of depression and anxiety than women who have not experienced a previous loss.

And to my surprise, pregnancy after loss can still feel heavy even after having a rainbow. Even though I went on to have a healthy, beautiful baby following my miscarriage, I still feel the lingering anxiety within my current pregnancy. Even though I have my little ray of sunshine after the storm, my heart still remembers. My rainbow does not negate my storm.

When I see a positive line on that test, I see a line that says, I am pregnant for now. I know things can change in a moment. I know my hopes and dreams can come crumbling down. I can be excited, yes. But not too excited. I am hopeful, yes. But I am still scared. 

And ultrasounds have become a thing I sorta dread. Before, they were exciting and wonderful. Squirmy gummy bears and little feet. They were a glimpse into the future. But then they were what broke the news. They were what crushed my hopes and dreams. And then they became a source of anxiety. They stirred up fears and triggered the what-ifs. What if there is no baby? What if there is no heartbeat? What if the baby is not growing or something is really wrong? All of these thoughts spiraling through my mind. And there I am trying to press them down. Trying to not let them take over. Trying to not let them ruin the whole journey.

It’s hard to not let the what-ifs creep in after a loss. And it’s still hard not letting the what-ifs creep in after a rainbow. I’m learning that pregnancy after a loss is always going to be a little different.

So to all the mamas wishing for their rainbow, holding their breaths, or trudging through their pregnancy after loss journey, you are courageous. I know this journey is hard. It is emotional. It is scary. And you, mama, are so very brave.

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Alisa Fulvio
Alisa is a psychotherapist, life coach and mom of three. Alisa is a native of Fairfield County and lives with her husband (a New York transplant), daughter (October 2012) and two sons (January 2015, June 2018). Following the birth of her second child, Alisa left her full-time job and pursued her dream of starting her own private practice by founding Balanced Being Counseling, LLC and Balanced Being Coaching, LLC ( located in downtown Fairfield. Alisa specializes in working with young women and moms to decrease stress and manage feelings of anxiety and depression. She is trained in treating perinatal mood and anxiety disorders and is an active committee member of Postpartum Support International- CT Chapter serving as the Communications Chair. Alisa is the creator the Facebook Group, Balanced Mama, a non-judgmental space for moms to feel inspired, gain support and come together among the chaos. She is passionate about motherhood, supporting women, buffalo chicken and a good margarita.


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